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February 2002 Well here it is, already a half a year since my surgery and I continue to be amazed at everything that has changed for me. The weight is still coming off at a decent pace and I'm now officially classified as just "overweight" instead of "obese" or "morbidly obese." A little bit more and I will fall into the "marginally overweight" classification, and only 15 more pounds and I will be considered within a normal weight range for my height (although I do hope to lose 25 more pounds total). Last year at this time I would have NEVER thought this was possible. It's something that I always dreamed of but never believed would become reality. And here I am starting to get into size 12 pants and size medium shirts and jackets! Woooo! One thing I did not expect is how my body is looking. It's so ironic in a way -- some people are of the opinion that I took the easy way out and just wanted a quick fix to be beautiful. That's funny, because my body has turned into anything but beautiful. I am more embarassed about what my body looks like now than I was at 300 lbs. Everything is sagging and hanging. I don't know if I will wear shorts this summer because my thighs have ripples of skin folds all down them. Short sleeve shirts show wrinkled, hanging skin on the insides of my arms and over my elbows and it is not pretty. All areas of my body have excess skin sagging and hanging. After a body loses 125+ pounds, it doesn't snap back into place despite working with weights 5 days a week. Many people, after they have lost the weight and maintained for a year, have a tummy tuck and much of the excess skin removed. I will probably do that sometime within the next 2 years, although in my case it will not be covered by insurance so I'll have to save up for it. As far as eating goes now, I can tolerate anything that isn't excessively fatty or sugary. I have no problems with most foods at all -- I eat rice and pasta fine, which some people have a problem with. I don't eat much beef anymore (personal choice) but I even had a slice of pizza the other day with no problems. I eat the weight watchers ice cream sandwiches once in a while which taste pretty good, but basically I have lost all taste for sugar. But I don't feel restricted or abnormal in anyway. I feel normal, and I feel free. On personal matters (which I will no longer be sharing in great detail here) I will say for all my friends who read my journal monthly to catch up on my progress: I have found the man that I am going to marry. We both have waited so long and gone through so much to find each other. I have never felt like this before and after wondering for so long if there really is such a thing as love, I finally know it for myself. And man, it's good.... ! |
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